Wrestling with G-d

למה… למה אני עדיין כאן?
Lamah… lamah ani adayin kan…
(Why… why am I still here?)

(Verse 1)
I woke up in the wreckage of another sleepless night
Counting every scar like it’s a reason I should fight
But the silence in the heavens never answers when I scream
So I tear apart the shadows just to prove that I still breathe

איפה אתה כשאני נופל?
דם על הידיים, תפילה על השפתיים
Eifo atah k’she’ani nofel?
Dam al hayadayim, tefilah al hasfatayim
(Where are You when I fall?
Blood on my hands, a prayer on my lips)

(Pre-Chorus)
I won’t bow down, I won’t disappear
If You’re still listening, then meet me here

אני לא נשבר
Ani lo nishbar
(I will not break)

(Chorus)
I’M WRESTLING WITH G-D
In the dark, in the flame, in the echo of pain
I scream to the heavens, no answer again

I’M WRESTLING WITH G-D
Every doubt, every scar, every question I am
If this is faith, why does it burn?

BUT I’M STILL HERE

(Verse 2)
You made me from the dust but You left me in the storm
Taught me how to suffer just to call it being reborn
Every blessing feels like something twisted into pain
Every step toward You just drags me back again

למה נתת לי לב שמרגיש?
אם אתה שומע—תן לי סימן
Lamah natata li lev she’margish?
Im atah shomea—ten li siman
(Why give me a heart that feels this much?
If You can hear me, give me a sign)

(Pre-Chorus)
I won’t bow down, I won’t be erased
I’ll drag Your silence into my rage

אני עוד נלחם
Ani od nilcham
(I'm still fighting)

(Chorus)
I’M WRESTLING WITH G-D
Through the fire, the doubt, every unanswered cry
שבור מבפנים—אבל חי
Shavur mibifnim, aval chai
(Broken inside, but still alive)

I’M WRESTLING WITH G-D
Every wound is a war that I carry alone
ואתה לא עונה לי עוד
V’atah lo oneh li od
(And You don't answer me anymore)

BUT I’M STILL HERE

(Bridge)
You made me question
You made me bleed
You made me doubt what I believe

But I’m still standing in the fire
Still dragging breath through the wire

Lai-lai lai… lai-lai lai…
Yai dai dai… yai dai dai…

Lai-lai lai, lai-lai lai
Yai dai dai, yai dai dai

Lai-lai lai-lai, yai dai dai dai
Lai-lai lai-lai, yai dai dai dai

LAI! LAI! LAI!
YAI! DAI! DAI!

LAI! LAI! LAI!
YAI! DAI! DAI!

נאבק! נאבק! נאבק!
Ne’evak! Ne’evak! Ne’evak!
(Wrestle! Wrestle! Wrestle!)

עם אלוהים!
Im Elohim!
(With G-d!)

(Final Chorus)
I’M WRESTLING WITH G-D
Not in peace, not in grace, but in fury and fire
This is the war of my soul

I’M WRESTLING WITH G-D
And I won’t let go till I’m broken or blessed
If You are real, then fight me!

(Outro)
למה… אני עדיין כאן?
…אבל אני כאן
Lamah… ani adayin kan…
…aval ani kan

(Why am I still here?
But I am here)